Nothing is permanent

Maybe the trickiest thing 

is that I have magic 

flowing through my fingertips

yet every day

My magic is letting me down

my spells are backfiring

I recently considered 

what if...

I just stop casting?

maybe the magic 

in my spells

would finally take affect?

maybe I should just

blow out the candles

stop drawing my dreams

and just be still.

wait.

Maybe I am casting too much

and my power is getting drained

out of my fingertips

My spells are drying up

My spirit is parched

I am casting and casting 

and casting for change

for a better day

I could tell you

why it is just so hard

So hard to continue 

Trying to make a difference

When

so much seems permanent at the time